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During my darkest days of struggling with ME/CFS, I mourned the loss of my healthy life. The life that allowed me to run about with endless energy until I was spent, needing only a few nights of solid rest to recover. And I held onto that loss for a while allowing it to further deepen my mood and draw precious energy from what little I had. It was sometimes combined with resentment and a bit of self-blame enabling a solid blow to my psyche. Fortunately, this was not a place I could live in for long.
As I began to understand that my medical practitioners, although most were well intentioned, had no clue what was wrong with me, I knew that it was going to be a hard road back to a healthy life. And for me, it wasn’t an option not to try. I could not accept this loss of my healthy life as a permanent chronic condition although that was the opinion I received over and over. OK, I readily admit that I’m an optimist at heart and stubborn as well.
As I began to treat myself like a case study of one, the healing started, slowly - literally, painfully slow. And it wasn’t until I was fully well that I began to find others who had also fully recovered. Unfortunately, ME/CFS is so stigmatized that even former patients don’t talk about it. So despite the pervasive message that patients don’t fully recover from ME/CFS, it’s not true. ME/CFS can be temporary. How do you handle moving forward from this feeling of loss? What are your strategies? Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.
Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays. And consider being part of the conversation.
Be Well Again,
Martha
As I began to understand that my medical practitioners, although most were well intentioned, had no clue what was wrong with me, I knew that it was going to be a hard road back to a healthy life. And for me, it wasn’t an option not to try. I could not accept this loss of my healthy life as a permanent chronic condition although that was the opinion I received over and over. OK, I readily admit that I’m an optimist at heart and stubborn as well.
As I began to treat myself like a case study of one, the healing started, slowly - literally, painfully slow. And it wasn’t until I was fully well that I began to find others who had also fully recovered. Unfortunately, ME/CFS is so stigmatized that even former patients don’t talk about it. So despite the pervasive message that patients don’t fully recover from ME/CFS, it’s not true. ME/CFS can be temporary. How do you handle moving forward from this feeling of loss? What are your strategies? Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.
Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays. And consider being part of the conversation.
Be Well Again,
Martha
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