Category: Pace

ME/CFS Pacing – Protect Part of Your Day

10/1/2019

When you’re struggling to recover from ME/CFS, pacing is one of the most difficult challenges. It’s too easy to get caught up in the flow of the day and lose control of what you had intended. We quickly can become victim to over doing and triggering a relapse. It can be absolutely maddening. We know what we need to do and not do. We have planned out the day. It’s in alignment with the protocol we’re following and we know if we follow the plan then we will have a successful, positive day.

Then the unpredictable, real world seems to take over. By the late afternoon we’ve either blown the plan to bits or we’re barely on track just hanging on. And we seem to do this way too often. OK, we’re human and we can forgive our weaknesses. But ME/CFS is not forgiving. ME/CFS is opportunistic and just waiting for an opening to assert itself like an energy gremlin. So what to do?

One of the strategies I used was to plan my day with built in breaks. I would sandwich them around the most demanding part of the day and sometimes also right in the middle if need be. I would have ‘optional’ parts of the day that I could opt out of depending on my energy levels and what else was still required of me. Essentially, I planned for the unpredictable. I gave myself space in the day to rest and to do whatever self-care I needed.

How are you pacing for the unpredictable? What part of your day do you protect? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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ME/CFS Self-Care – Knowing Our Limits

7/23/2019

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Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about self-care. And it got me thinking about what we know about our limits and what we do for others knowing that we will exceed those limits. Our wish to please the people we care about and to do for them somehow overrides all we’ve learned about self-care and especially everything we know about recovery from ME/CFS.

I was reminded of a book I first read in my twenties when I was babysitting - “The Giving Tree” by Shel Silverstein. Maybe you’re familiar with it. On first reading, I thought it was a lovely story about love and what a parent will give selflessly to a child. At the time I saw it from the viewpoint of a child thinking about my mother and her love for me. The next time I read the book, I was a parent myself and I was reading to my child. My fond memory of the book was dashed as I turned each page and read how the main character, a tree, gave and gave and gave to ‘the boy’ until she was nothing but a lifeless stump. And even then, she still gave by letting the now aged boy sit on her.

Healthy people often struggle with self-care choices. As ME/CFS patients we make daily decisions about self-care – energy levels, rest needs, symptom management and recovery protocols. And despite all we have learned, we somehow ‘decide’ to push ourselves too far for our loved ones. Who are we fooling? How do we keep within our limits? How do we communicate honestly with our loved ones? How do we show our love without suffering a set back? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Stages – Resist Rushing to the Finish

4/2/2019

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Several years ago, I was part of a committee charged with building an outdoor labyrinth at our church. We worked on this task for over four years. It was, at times, so frustrating to try to continue despite the many obstacles that were thrown in our path. There were moments when I had the urge to construct a quick ‘midnight’ labyrinth that would suddenly appear the next morning. But, of course, that would have been a weak effort, not fully sound and would not have lasted very long before degrading back into something unsustainable. The parallels with ME/CFS are unmistakable.

When I was struggling with ME/CFS, I would begin to make progress. I would actually be able to handle a trip to the grocery store. I was elated! And afterward, there was no crash. Yahoo! This was it. I could taste the satisfaction of recovery and being back to my old self. Followed by another day of moderate activity. Still feeling good. And then, in a rush, I would pick up the pace and get back to my old ways. We all know what happened next. Full plunge crash - and feeling worse than ever. I was not fully well and could not sustain the pace before degrading back into ME/CFS. Full disclosure, I’m a bit embarrassed to say, I did this several times. Several times! What was I thinking? I just wanted it SO bad, that I would rush to the finish.

Then the day had finally come, after years of planning, winning over the congregation and having a contractor lay a solid foundation of compacted crushed stone with a final layer of heavy, screed sand, we assembled the labyrinth. Led by our committee and supported by a hard working army of volunteers, we laid out the intricate pattern of stones, cutting some as necessary, to form the paths of the labyrinth. It looked beautiful and was solid underfoot. It has lasted a long time - only because we didn’t rush to the finish. We kept to the consistent, detailed pace. It was a wonderful milestone - excuse the pun. But even then, we were not done. The contractor returned and compacted the surface to ensure that all the stones stayed in place. Then they filled all the gaps with polymer sand to lock the stones together. They regraded up to the edge with loam and reseeded so the grass would regrow around the labyrinth. And we all know how long it takes for grass to grow and fully take hold. After all these years, it still looks great.

If you’re struggling with ME/CFS, please resist the urge to rush to the finish. It is SO tempting. But resist you must. How do you deal with keeping to your successful pace? What are your strategies? Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Mantra – Pace, Pace, Pace

3/5/2019

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We had a light snowfall this week so I went out to shovel the sidewalk. It was only a couple inches of fluffy white so the going was easy. As I scooped up and tossed each airy load, I began to get a rhythm going. And of course I started to think about ME/CFS – my daily thankfulness for my return to full health is never far from the front burner. I had developed two mantras during my struggle back from ME/CFS. The first was Attitude, Attitude, Attitude. It took me a long time to finally cut myself some slack about being sick and then about feeling like I was letting my family and loved ones down. Not to mention dumping my anger at the medical community.

Once I started to accept the reality of my illness and my personal challenges, my mantra switched to what I could actually DO about my situation. That’s when I took up my second mantra. So as I tossed aside the snow, I began to softly, slowly chant, “Pace… Pace… Pace…” Being attentive to my daily routines, my choices for energy expenditure and reluctantly pulling back on my own reins whether I liked it or not, were key to pacing myself back to health. Yes - Of course I screwed up sometimes and wanted to kick myself but mostly I was firm in my commitment. And I did my best to communicate that to others around me.

How are you doing with pacing? What challenges you the most? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Feng Shui – How Does Your Energy Flow?

2/12/2019

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I was recently rearranging the furniture in my family room in order to accommodate a new door. I also just wanted a new look without buying new furniture. As I began to move things around, I was surprised at how different the same things could look and function just by rearranging them. The energy in the room changed too. It felt airier and brighter – it flowed better. Of course this got me thinking about ME/CFS and how poorly my energy flowed.

For most of the first half of my struggle with ME/CFS, I didn’t regulate my energy at all. I burnt up whatever I had then crashed. There was no pacing. There was no intension to plan my day around what I could reasonably handle. And most important, there was no progress toward getting better. The opposite was true. I was getting worse.

Once I decided to take more control of my ME/CFS, my energy flow changed dramatically. Instead of the abrupt go, go then stop, stop, stop, I began to use my energy reserves at a slow but steady pace. Much like the familiar Tortoise and Hare story, I was slowly getting back to wellness one day at a time. And over a long period of time I got there. Sadly, I’m guessing that I left a few Hares behind still trapped in the cruelty of ME/CFS.

I’m sitting in my newly rearranged family room as I write. What a difference. The energy is flowing easily - not rushed or stopped up. How are you managing your energy flow? Have you embraced your tortoise? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Recovery - Every Day Counts

1/29/2019

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I have a long-term goal. And I make progress in some ways but fall short in others. It’s been a struggle. I made a recent decision to rethink my time management around this goal and remembered a favorite quote from Annie Dillard, “How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.” And I started to see the parallels between my recent approaches to this new goal and how I had initially reacted to my struggle with ME/CFS. My approach had been inconsistent and I misunderstood the need to apply myself every day to my desire to get well.

So much of what I did in those early days of ME/CFS came out of frustration and anger. But even when I moved past that, I still wasn’t focused on the importance of how I spent each and every day. It took a while before I began to see each day as a building block, which was added to the day before. And so on until I had built up a week of days, then a month of days and eventually many months and finally a year of days. That added up to 365 days in a row of consciously working toward recovering my health. When I finally understood the value and rewards of daily focus, I began to see real progress.

So our lives do reflect how we spend our days. And one day at a time, each and every day, you can make progress toward regaining your health. That’s the only way I was successful. How do you focus on your recovery every day? Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for my next posting on Tuesday, February 12th. And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Choices - The Holiday Bustle

11/27/2018

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Before I was sick with ME/CFS, the holidays were a blur of activities in addition to the normal work and family commitments. A Healthy person struggled to get it all done.

Then I went through four holiday seasons struggling with ME/CFS. For two of them, I was bedridden for most of each day. As is often the norm for ME/CFS sufferers, I was pretty hard on myself. All I could think of were the special holiday things that my kids and family weren’t enjoying because of me. But I couldn’t do anything about it. So those holidays passed with me needlessly feeling down.

Then came a holiday season when I was feeling stronger – not fully well but better. And of course, true to form, I wanted to make up for the ‘lost holidays’. Lessons can be tough to learn. Gratefully, I had people around me and a voice in my own head that said, “Do only what you enjoy and can handle - let the rest go.”

Now that I am fully well, our holidays are still scaled down and we all like it that way. It’s more like a delightful sampling of what the season offers than a forced and frenzied banquet. We don’t do every activity every year. We switch it out. Our gift giving is mostly donations to charities, Yankee Swaps (even with family) and special consumables (wine, soup mixes, teas, etc). We haven’t sent cards in years. I’m thinking I might send an e-card this year. Maybe…

How do you get through this season without straining your energy limits and pushing yourself into relapses? What do you happily forego from the holiday hustle and bustle list? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Gifts – Pace Yourself

10/16/2018

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I’ve been thinking a lot about pacing - for myself, for my family, for the seemingly swirling world around me. Are we goal driven or just driven? Are we actually going anywhere? Do we arrive? Are we missing the whole point of the journey itself by never slowing down? When I was struggling with ME/CFS, I was forced to slow down. For a time, I was forced to completely stop.

It wasn’t until I began to recover, slowly but surely, that I also began to understand the ‘gift’ of being forced to slow down. Not that I recommend ME/CFS as a good path to gaining perspective on pacing your life but it was how I got the message. Making choices and pacing have become part of my new way of being. I do smell the roses now.

If you worry about what you’re missing as you struggle with ME/CFS, this quote will make you smile.

"Slow down and everything you are chasing will come around and catch you.” John De Paola

It reminds me of a Saturday morning cartoon where a dog is chasing a cat around in a circle. The cat steps off to the side and just watches the dog who continues to run around the circle. I can remember the road runner doing this to wile e coyote too.

Although ME/CFS is not the preferred method for receiving the ‘gift’ of pacing, it is the way we’ve received it. Open it up and appreciate the message. How are you pacing? What are your strategies? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Reality – Commit to Being A Patient

10/2/2018

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I recently received an e-mail from a someone who has been struggling with ME/CFS for several years. Like many of us, he has been given the ‘go home and have hope speech’, has gone to the high-priced medical clinic to no avail, and has been treated by compassionate practitioners who haven’t been able to help him either.

Now, he’s as sick as he was at the beginning. Square One. SO Frustrating. And SUCH a familiar story. So many of us have gone this route of exploring every path we can think of knowing that we have a real physical illness. And only making small inroads. Glimmers of hope that eventually fade. And often, we find ourselves back at Square One.

If you’ve read my book, you know that when I got back to square one that was when we decided to turn me into a lab rat. I literally spent a year in bed on a fixed schedule no matter how I was feeling. I allowed myself to increase my activity - in very small increments - only when I had a solid period of time without any problems. This was in many ways torture for a type A like me. But I stuck to the plan because everything else had failed. I stopped looking for the miracle and focused on unraveling the clues to my own version of ME/CFS.

The biggest obstacle I had was allowing me to be sick. To be a patient. To commit to giving up functioning for a while in order to get a normal life back down the road. And I think I needed to waste all the other time on those other paths. It drove home the point that I wasn't getting anywhere going at this half heartedly. Those were wasted years anyway so what was one more year if it paid off? I know that this is not an option for many people because of responsibilities. But somehow, it’s important to relinquish our need to find the ‘silver bullet’ and get focused on figuring out how to get well.

How do you deal with the struggle between getting well again and also having a life? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Energy – Intermittent

8/7/2018

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An intense sequence of squall lines loaded with lightning and thunder recently swept through our area and I hope that all in its path were safe and able to ride out the storm. We now have our power back for good. During the height of the storm we lost and regained our power intermittently for about 5 hours. And it created uncertainly that kept resolving and then degrading over and over. It reminded me of how my energy waffled during my early struggle with ME/CFS.

Some days I couldn’t walk across the room without pain and exhaustion. Then, miraculously, the next day I could walk down stairs and even wash dishes feeling energized and ‘normal’. Of course, the next day, I struggled just to find the energy to sit up and eat. Then I would feel decent for two days. Then a crash. The negative cycle repeated over and over. It was beyond frustrating, it was infuriating. And I felt helpless and victimized. No one had any answers.

The intermittent energy felt by every patient who struggles with ME/CFS makes it a cruel disease. When I finally started taking control of my energy expenditures, I began the path to recovery. How do you keep your energy levels consistent? What are your strategies? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Pacing – Protect Part of Your Day

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ME/CFS Stages – Resist Rushing to the Finish

ME/CFS Mantra – Pace, Pace, Pace

ME/CFS Feng Shui – How Does Your Energy Flow?

ME/CFS Recovery - Every Day Counts

ME/CFS Choices - The Holiday Bustle

ME/CFS Gifts – Pace Yourself

ME/CFS Reality – Commit to Being A Patient

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