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ME/CFS Feng Shui – How Does Your Energy Flow?

2/23/2021

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I was recently rearranging the furniture in my family room in order to accommodate a new door.  I also just wanted a new look without buying new furniture.  As I began to move things around, I was surprised at how different the same things could look and function just by rearranging them. The energy in the room changed too.  It felt airier and brighter – it flowed better.   Of course this got me thinking about ME/CFS and how poorly my energy flowed.

For most of the first half of my struggle with ME/CFS, I didn’t regulate my energy at all.  I burnt up whatever I had then crashed.  There was no pacing.  There was no intension to plan my day around what I could reasonably handle.  And most important, there was no progress toward getting better.  The opposite was true.  I was getting worse.

Once I decided to take more control of my ME/CFS, my energy flow changed dramatically.  Instead of the abrupt go, go then stop, stop, stop, I began to use my energy reserves at a slow but steady pace.  Much like the familiar Tortoise and Hare story, I was slowly getting back to wellness one day at a time.  And over a long period of time I got there.  Sadly, I’m guessing that I left a few Hares behind still trapped in the cruelty of ME/CFS.


I’m sitting in my newly rearranged family room as I write.  What a difference.  The energy is flowing easily - not rushed or stopped up.  How are you managing your energy flow?  Have you embraced your tortoise?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS New Year - Take a fresh look

1/5/2021

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It’s a hackneyed part of our culture that everyone makes New Year resolutions which we earnestly pursue for one month.  Then we return to our old habitual patterns.  And every year we resolve not to let that happen yet again.  So here we are.  For many, it’s a desire to improve one’s health.  If you’re struggling with ME/CFS, the stakes and the rewards are much higher than the average person who just wants to look or feel healthier.  For us, it’s about reclaiming our lives and our ability to be fully functioning and present – to be well again.
 
I encourage you to take a fresh look at your version of ME/CFS.  Hopefully you are keeping a daily log of your activities, sleeping/resting times, symptoms and medications.  Step back and take an objective look at your patterns.  Look for periods of wellness.  What preceded those periods?  Replicate those patterns.  Look for periods of ill health or crashes.  What preceded those periods?  Don’t repeat those patterns.  Look at your symptoms.  Which are the most debilitating?  When do they flair up?  How can you treat them in order to short circuit the flair up?  Look at your sleeping patterns.  How can you improve the quality of your sleep?  How can you make your bedroom into your version of slumber heaven – light, sound, comfort and sleep aids.  Your daily log needs to be mined for clues as you find your path back to wellness. 
 

If you’ve made progress this year and you’ve managed to shed some of the symptoms that were masking your version of ME/CFS, awesome!  As you take a fresh look, you may get a clearer view of the key or central issues which characterize your version of ME/CFS and some insight into new approaches, strategies and clues to your next steps.  It was through this methodical periodic review that I eventually unraveled my version of ME/CFS and was able to be fully well again.  What will you focus on in this New Year?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Distractions – Stay on Plan

6/9/2020

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I had a plan for the last two weeks but it didn’t play out the way I’d envisioned.  Honestly, I can’t remember how things got so off track.  Maybe I was trying to juggle too much or maybe it was the reality that too many variables were in play.  I was truly over ambitious.  Of course, this reminded me of when I was struggling with ME/CFS and it took so long for me to finally get focused on the plan – the single focus plan.

During the beginning of my struggle, I was riding the rollercoaster of push/crash.  I had no consistent plan for managing my illness.  Each day was a question mark.  How was I going to do today?  How would I feel?  And this lack of planning only made me feel worse.  Then I finally understood that all the distractions of life – all of the activities – were keeping me from getting well again.  I needed to ignore the distractions and focus on saving my energy and using it with discretion.  I needed to stay with the plan.

So the warmer weather is here.  The summer will be filled with activities.  It will be a time that pushes our wellness plans to the limit.  What are your strategies for staying on plan?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha

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Recovery Opinions – Some More Hopeful Than Others

11/12/2019

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ME/CFS patients seem to be firmly in either the ‘can’ or ‘can’t’ recover camps.  As one might guess, most of the opinions can to be related to whether or not each has been able to recover.  And then there are the rest: fence sitters who are hopeful and want recovery to be possible. 
 
For me, I keep coming back to what I feel is so unfair about this ME/CFS diagnosis.  The fact the even though thousands of patients get this label, they actually don’t all have the same disease.  So using the same treatment and approach, two patients can have completely different outcomes.  Or one has great success and the other minimal improvement.  Yes, I believe that ME/CFS patients can recover.  Can they all recover using the same treatment?  No.  Can they recover using the same protocol and strategies?  Call me crazy but my answer is yes.
 
My training as a health professional drilled into me two things:  first, despite all the marvelous progress that medicine had made over the last century, we still only know and understand a small portion of the intricacies of the human body.  Second, the way that we learn things is to collect data, hypothesize, test, evaluate and then collect more data, etc.

 
Personal data collection (yes, I keep harping on this) and successful strategies seem to be the way out for many.  Have you developed any strategies that work for you?  Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Goals – Celebrate Each One

5/21/2019

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The last couple weeks have been non-stop activity.  We have been celebrating a friend’s graduation from college with senior shows, events, special dinners and of course the official commencement ceremony.  She has been focused on getting here for the last four years and has been successful due in major part to her focus and undistracted commitment.  And of course I’ve been thinking about my struggle with ME/CFS.  How grateful I am to be well again and able to fully participate in the celebrations but also because she has succeeded the same way that I succeeded in recovering from ME/CFS.

After struggling for several years, trying everything we heard about and searching for the doctor who could give us the answers to my illness and the magic pill so I could get my life back, we finally realized that there wasn’t an easy answer.  So we decided to try a new approach.  The long term goal was to be fully well again.  But we knew that there were many small goals between the present and my healthy future.  We had to string many smaller goals together in order to reach the ultimate wellness goal.
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And so it has been with my friend.  Over the course of four years, she has set her goals one semester at a time.  And for me it was this same step by step approach that finally worked.  I broke the whole goal down into reasonable chunks.  And as I achieved each goal, we celebrated.  I’m not talking parties.  Just simple recognition of what it took to get there and acknowledging the progress.  This gave me the validation to keep going.


So what’s your next short term goal on the road to wellness?  What have you celebrated lately?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.
Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Recovery - Every Day Counts

1/29/2019

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I have a long-term goal.  And I make progress in some ways but fall short in others.  It’s been a struggle.  I made a recent decision to rethink my time management around this goal and remembered a favorite quote from Annie Dillard, “How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.”  And I started to see the parallels between my recent approaches to this new goal and how I had initially reacted to my struggle with ME/CFS.  My approach had been inconsistent and I misunderstood the need to apply myself every day to my desire to get well.

So much of what I did in those early days of ME/CFS came out of frustration and anger.  But even when I moved past that, I still wasn’t focused on the importance of how I spent each and every day.  It took a while before I began to see each day as a building block, which was added to the day before.  And so on until I had built up a week of days, then a month of days and eventually many months and finally a year of days.  That added up to 365 days in a row of consciously working toward recovering my health.  When I finally understood the value and rewards of daily focus, I began to see real progress.


So our lives do reflect how we spend our days.  And one day at a time, each and every day, you can make progress toward regaining your health.  That’s the only way I was successful.  How do you focus on your recovery every day?  Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for my next posting on Tuesday, February 12th.   And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Holidays – The Gift of Helping

12/4/2018

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Someone asked me what I’d like for the Holidays and honestly I couldn’t think of a thing I needed or wanted.  Maybe a technology upgrade but not the typical holiday gift items that one would search for while wandering the mall among the frenzied herds.  When I was struggling with ME/CFS, and someone asked what I wanted for the holidays, all I could think of was my health.  And of course they couldn’t give me that.
 
At the time, I don’t remember having the clear thought process to be able to articulate the kinds of ‘gifts’ that would have been truly helpful in supporting my recovery.  With hindsight, now I can think of many that would have been much appreciated.  In my younger days when I was short on cash, one of my favorite ‘go to’ gifts was the personal gift certificate.  I would think of something I could do for the recipient and create a certificate that could be presented to me when the service was needed.

 
Imagine all the helpful things that people could do for you as you struggle with ME/CFS.  Driving to appointment, cooking a meal, mowing, shoveling and walking the dog come to mind.  What would you value in a personal gift certificate?  What do you wish was in your helping gift?  Tell us and then tell those who want to help.  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!
 
Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Choices - The Holiday Bustle

11/27/2018

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Before I was sick with ME/CFS, the holidays were a blur of activities in addition to the normal work and family commitments.  A Healthy person struggled to get it all done.
 
Then I went through four holiday seasons struggling with ME/CFS.  For two of them, I was bedridden for most of each day.  As is often the norm for ME/CFS sufferers, I was pretty hard on myself.  All I could think of were the special holiday things that my kids and family weren’t enjoying because of me.  But I couldn’t do anything about it.  So those holidays passed with me needlessly feeling down.
 
Then came a holiday season when I was feeling stronger – not fully well but better.  And of course, true to form, I wanted to make up for the ‘lost holidays’.  Lessons can be tough to learn.  Gratefully, I had people around me and a voice in my own head that said, “Do only what you enjoy and can handle - let the rest go.”
 
Now that I am fully well, our holidays are still scaled down and we all like it that way.  It’s more like a delightful sampling of what the season offers than a forced and frenzied banquet.  We don’t do every activity every year.  We switch it out.  Our gift giving is mostly donations to charities, Yankee Swaps (even with family) and special consumables (wine, soup mixes, teas, etc).  We haven’t sent cards in years.  I’m thinking I might send an e-card this year.  Maybe…

 
How do you get through this season without straining your energy limits and pushing yourself into relapses?  What do you happily forego from the holiday hustle and bustle list?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Gifts – Pace Yourself

10/16/2018

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I’ve been thinking a lot about pacing - for myself, for my family, for the seemingly swirling world around me.  Are we goal driven or just driven?  Are we actually going anywhere?  Do we arrive?  Are we missing the whole point of the journey itself by never slowing down?  When I was struggling with ME/CFS, I was forced to slow down.  For a time, I was forced to completely stop.
 
It wasn’t until I began to recover, slowly but surely, that I also began to understand the ‘gift’ of being forced to slow down.  Not that I recommend ME/CFS as a good path to gaining perspective on pacing your life but it was how I got the message.  Making choices and pacing have become part of my new way of being.  I do smell the roses now.
 
If you worry about what you’re missing as you struggle with ME/CFS, this quote will make you smile.

"Slow down and everything you are chasing will come around and catch you.”     John De Paola
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It reminds me of a Saturday morning cartoon where a dog is chasing a cat around in a circle.  The cat steps off to the side and just watches the dog who continues to run around the circle.  I can remember the road runner doing this to wile e coyote too.

 
Although ME/CFS is not the preferred method for receiving the ‘gift’ of pacing, it is the way we’ve received it.  Open it up and appreciate the message.  How are you pacing?  What are your strategies?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Reality – Commit to Being A Patient

10/2/2018

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I recently received an e-mail from a someone who has been struggling with ME/CFS for several years.  Like many of us, he has been given the ‘go home and have hope speech’, has gone to the high-priced medical clinic to no avail, and has been treated by compassionate practitioners who haven’t been able to help him either.
 
Now, he’s as sick as he was at the beginning.  Square One.  SO Frustrating.  And SUCH a familiar story.  So many of us have gone this route of exploring every path we can think of knowing that we have a real physical illness.  And only making small inroads.  Glimmers of hope that eventually fade.  And often, we find ourselves back at Square One.
 
If you’ve read my book, you know that when I got back to square one that was when we decided to turn me into a lab rat.  I literally spent a year in bed on a fixed schedule no matter how I was feeling.  I allowed myself to increase my activity - in very small increments - only when I had a solid period of time without any problems.  This was in many ways torture for a type A like me.  But I stuck to the plan because everything else had failed.  I stopped looking for the miracle and focused on unraveling the clues to my own version of ME/CFS.
 
The biggest obstacle I had was allowing me to be sick.  To be a patient.  To commit to giving up functioning for a while in order to get a normal life back down the road.  And I think I needed to waste all the other time on those other paths.  It drove home the point that I wasn't getting anywhere going at this half heartedly.  Those were wasted years anyway so what was one more year if it paid off?  I know that this is not an option for many people because of responsibilities.  But somehow, it’s important to relinquish our need to find the ‘silver bullet’ and get focused on figuring out how to get well.
 

How do you deal with the struggle between getting well again and also having a life?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!
 
Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.
 
Be Well Again,
Martha


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