Now, he’s as sick as he was at the beginning. Square One. SO Frustrating. And SUCH a familiar story. So many of us have gone this route of exploring every path we can think of knowing that we have a real physical illness. And only making small inroads. Glimmers of hope that eventually fade. And often, we find ourselves back at Square One.
If you’ve read my book, you know that when I got back to square one that was when we decided to turn me into a lab rat. I literally spent a year in bed on a fixed schedule no matter how I was feeling. I allowed myself to increase my activity - in very small increments - only when I had a solid period of time without any problems. This was in many ways torture for a type A like me. But I stuck to the plan because everything else had failed. I stopped looking for the miracle and focused on unraveling the clues to my own version of ME/CFS.
The biggest obstacle I had was allowing me to be sick. To be a patient. To commit to giving up functioning for a while in order to get a normal life back down the road. And I think I needed to waste all the other time on those other paths. It drove home the point that I wasn't getting anywhere going at this half heartedly. Those were wasted years anyway so what was one more year if it paid off? I know that this is not an option for many people because of responsibilities. But somehow, it’s important to relinquish our need to find the ‘silver bullet’ and get focused on figuring out how to get well.
How do you deal with the struggle between getting well again and also having a life? What are your strategies? Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.
I’ll be away next week so look for my next posting on Tuesday September 2nd. And consider being part of the conversation.
Be Well Again,