Category: Recovery

ME/CFS Stop – When we had other plans

3/27/2018

Recently we were driving along with a schedule for the day. Then bang. We had a tire blow out. We were able to safely get to the side of road but that one event shot holes in the plan for the day. As we began to assess the condition of our spare tire and whether all the parts of the jack were in the truck, I was reminded of how ME/CFS suddenly forced me to change my plans.

There I was, tooling along with my life plan and then suddenly – bang – I was so ill that I was bedridden. And after going through the seemingly endless screening process, I was diagnosed with ME/CFS. Not great news.

Back on the side of the road, we thought we had everything to change the tire and started in. Then we realized that the jack crank was missing. Great – that meant that we had to raise up the car one half turn at a time. As I knelt by the car, inserting the lug wrench, turning a half turn, removing the lug wrench, moving it back to the other side, then reinserting and turning a half turn – over and over and over – I kept thinking about how ME/CFS required me to invent tools to get well because the normal methods didn’t work. And getting well was agonizingly slow. And repetitive. And repetitive. And really repetitive.

So having that flat tire abruptly changed my plans and it took more time than it should have because we didn’t have the right tools. And getting ME/CFS abruptly changed my life plans and it took more time to get well from ME/CFS because we needed to invent the right tools. What tools are you inventing? What tools are you learning from others? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Recovery – Take Control

2/27/2018

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Have you had the experience of being introduced to a new perspective or way of looking at something and then suddenly you see it everywhere? Is it something new that’s popping up everywhere or had it been there all the time? Is it you who has changed by being aware or more open? From my own experience, I think it’s me. And when I truly grasp a new perspective, it seems to apply to everything.

My latest perspective is about control versus out of control. So much of our lives are controlled from somewhere else. But there is much that we can control. Not everything and not all of a certain thing, but there is much that we can tweak, reinforce and push for. Lately I’ve heard many people express to me and wring their hands about how things are happening in their lives. And they take the perspective that they are at the mercy of whatever it is. And as I hear this, my mind is saying take control. Make some intentional changes and be proactive. And of course it’s gotten me thinking about my struggle with ME/CFS.

At first, I turned over control of my illness to my doctors. But after much wasted time and energy, I finally admitted to myself that not only did they not have the answers, they ultimately just didn’t get it. A few were compassionate but that just felt good. It didn’t get me well. Finally I started to carve out pieces that I could control. I was sick of being sick and I was sick of getting nowhere. So, even though I wasn’t convinced that I really could change my SEID/CFS illness, I was so ticked off about having no answers to this cruel disease that I just started recording and tweaking. Recording and tweaking. Recording and tweaking ad nauseum.

So I just took action. I didn’t know what I was doing. But I was doing and it felt good. Would I get anywhere? I didn’t know but it felt better exerting some control. Eventually it became my path back to wellness but I didn’t know that when I started. I just needed to take some control. And it was good for my mental health. Are you taking some control of your version of ME/CFS? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome.

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Plan – Only Keep Your Successful Strategies

1/16/2018

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I learned a new card game over the weekend with a specific deck that contained resource, action and reward cards. The premise of the game was to start with a few cards and then slowly, through the gameplay, build a personal deck of select cards that you thought would be successful in winning the game. On every turn you had to make choices about what to keep, what to acquire and what to aim for. After playing three hands, of course I began to think about ME/CFS and how I had used a similar plan to get well.

After struggling for almost two years, only getting worse, I finally decided that I needed a better plan than my daily ‘how do I feel today?’ approach with the hope that by some miracle I would walk away fully recovered. FYI – I’ve never heard of this actually working for a ME/CFS patient. I decided that I needed a real plan. One made up of a handful of strategies that had actually improved some aspect of my illness. Over time I collected a record keeping strategy, a sleep strategy, a rest schedule strategy, a provider strategy, a nutrition strategy, a supplement strategy and a network for help strategy. Each strategy alone wasn’t going to get me well by itself but as a complementary set of strategies I was able to not only make measureable progress but eventually return to full health.

In essence, I built a personal deck of strategies which I played each day much like the new card game I had learned albeit the stakes were much higher. What strategies have worked for you and are in your personal ME/CFS plan deck? What strategies have you discarded? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Pacing – Keeping the Beat

11/14/2017

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I was recently playing drums with a small group of drummers and what started with a base rhythm devolved into a less than pleasant cacophony of noise. If you’ve ever sat in on a drum circle, you know exactly what I mean. To solve this problem, the leader needs to lay down a basic simple beat and hold it. It gives everyone a point of reference to play off of and to return to and it keeps the group cohesive. Experienced drummers already know this and learners usually pick it up when the leader points it out. When you’re struggling with ME/CFS, there’s no leader to set the basic beat.

When a large mother drum is present, several people sit around it and hold down a beat – sometimes it’s a heartbeat. It sounds like an actual heart beating – boom, boom, pause. Boom, boom, pause. Just like the line you’d see scrolling across the screen of a cardiac monitor. Two peaks followed by a flatter line. It’s all about the underlying rhythm - the natural pacemaker.

Unfortunately for ME/CFS patients, it’s a challenge to keep the basic beat – the pace that will consistently get us from day to day without being caught up in a push/crash cycle. It’s a matter of fine tuning. Collect data, make observations, find successful patterns – Repeat. Repeat, Repeat, Pause. Repeat, Repeat, Pause. And eventually Repeat your way back to health.

How do you pace to a basic beat? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Common Ground – Not What Divides Us

10/24/2017

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Our political discourse these days seems to have devolved into a contentious ‘Us and Them’ battle. Anything, no matter how insignificant, that could possibly make the ‘other guys’ look bad becomes fodder for the media to ramp up and exploit for days and weeks. Meanwhile, nothing is getting done. No matter what your political view point, this nasty gridlock is frustrating. I recently read about a ridiculous series of political volleys and it got me thinking about how I sometimes see this same illogic in the ME/CFS medical field.

As patients struggling with ME/CFS day after week after month after year, we are always hopeful that a significant new medical or research break through will be the answer that liberates us from this cruel disease. And I can only imagine how hopeful researchers and medical practitioners can be that they are onto a solution or an effective treatment that will be ‘the silver bullet’. They can seem just as certain that they have the answer and honestly, sometimes severely critical of other ideas being wrong. With resources and money scarce in this economy, it can start to sound a bit like our political discourse. But realistically, we all know that ME/CFS is a waste basket diagnosis. There are many versions of ME/CFS lumped in together. They could all be onto the key to different diseases that could be culled out of the waste basket.

In the meantime, as patients, we need to focus on our common ground and support each other as we struggle to get well. Work to understand our own versions of this cruel disease, follow the clues of our patterns and carefully pace, pace and pace. Have you found any ‘common ground’ strategies to share? Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Loss – Can be Temporary

10/17/2017

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During my darkest days of struggling with ME/CFS, I mourned the loss of my healthy life. The life that allowed me to run about with endless energy until I was spent, needing only a few nights of solid rest to recover. And I held onto that loss for a while allowing it to further deepen my mood and draw precious energy from what little I had. It was sometimes combined with resentment and a bit of self-blame enabling a solid blow to my psyche. Fortunately, this was not a place I could live in for long.

As I began to understand that my medical practitioners, although most were well intentioned, had no clue what was wrong with me, I knew that it was going to be a hard road back to a healthy life. And for me, it wasn’t an option not to try. I could not accept this loss of my healthy life as a permanent chronic condition although that was the opinion I received over and over. OK, I readily admit that I’m an optimist at heart and stubborn as well.

As I began to treat myself like a case study of one, the healing started, slowly - literally, painfully slow. And it wasn’t until I was fully well that I began to find others who had also fully recovered. Unfortunately, ME/CFS is so stigmatized that even former patients don’t talk about it. So despite the pervasive message that patients don’t fully recover from ME/CFS, it’s not true. ME/CFS can be temporary. Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Goals – Attitude, Attitude, Attitude

10/3/2017

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A while back, a friend recommended that I read Amy Chua’s Battle Hymn of the Tiger Mother. Shortly after, an item on the internet about the book caught my eye. There appeared to be some controversy about the book – a true story. Strong opinions were voiced for and against the mom (author of the book). Now this definitely had my attention. I decided to pick up a copy.

I’d only read forty or so pages and I understood why people took issue with the mothers parenting style. She was driven to have her children excel at school and music to the exclusion of everything else. She was relentless about studies and practicing. A therapist would probably label her as obsessive. Many readers thought she was cruel.

If I had never had ME/CFS, I might have been in the cruel camp. And I definitely question such extreme rigidity with children. But honestly, I understood the mother and her motivation. She set a goal for her children that she was determined to reach. OK, it wasn’t her own goal and she seemed to act like a bully at times. But what I identified with was the determination, the attitude to stick with the plan always keeping the goal in mind. Not being derailed by everyday distractions. For her, if it didn’t fit into the long term plan, it was not allowed.

After two years of riding the cruel ME/CFS rollercoaster, I finally decided that what I had been doing wasn’t working. I needed a new approach. From that day forward, I was like the tiger mother. I was highly motivated to get my health back. I was determined, focused and had the capacity for regimentation. If it wasn’t part of the plan, it was out. No more crappy food. No more activities that sent me into relapses. No more cheating on sleep and rest. No more isolation – I asked for help. No more fuzzy recall – I kept records. No more fretting about what other people thought of me – I accepted my situation and didn’t beat myself up about it. I focused on the goal of getting my health back.

So if you’re suffering with ME/CFS, what is your goal? What are you doing to reach it? Are you consistent and steadfast? Are you a tiger about getting well again? Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Change – New Beginnings

9/5/2017

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Although the official beginning of Fall will arrive on the Autumnal Equinox, the days after the long Labor Day weekend and the sighting of a morning school bus bring on the feel of the changing season. Although some of us would enjoy an extra week or two of August weather, it’s time. And nature reinforces that with the cooler nights and comfortable daytime temps. When I was first sick with ME/CFS, I would grind on myself about another season come and gone – wasted – while I languished in bed. I was still caught up in the desperate search to find someone who could cure me.

Then I finally began to realize that there wasn’t a silver bullet – even now, I’m sad that there isn’t – and that I needed a new approach. A change - A new beginning. I had been doing the same things over and over again and expecting a different outcome – I believe that’s the definition of insanity. And yes, anyone would get a little insane if they knew they were physically ill but no one could or would provide some answers.

Many of us find change to be outside of our comfort zones. But change is the way forward for many of life’s challenges. ME/CFS is no exception. It wasn’t until I took a hard look at myself and my specific version of ME/CFS that I began to heal and work my way back to full health.

What change will you bring to your approach to ME/CFS? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS/SEID Colored Glasses

7/18/2017

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When you are struggling with ME/CFS/SEID, it’s hard to see anything else. ME/CFS/SEID controls your energy, your schedule, your choices, your physical comfort, your day, your night and your outlook. Everything you consider can be interpreted through your ME/CFS/SEID colored glasses with a dose of brain fog.

For someone with ME/CFS/SEID, it’s a necessity. It’s a survival mechanism. It’s reality. And fighting this reality is fruitless. Just more squandered energy and risked relapses.

Remembering that we have restrictions eventually becomes second nature. And as much as it totally stinks, it can develop into the way forward. Acceptance of this second nature or inner ME/CFS/SEID voice can bring rewards. Better choices. Better days. Beginning to experience better weeks.

For me personally, it took several knock down relapses before I understood this dreaded voice. Some days I wanted to throttle it. The message was one that I didn’t want to hear. But slowly, eventually, I began to listen. Do you listen to the cautionary messages of your inner voice? Are you learning to pace yourself better and avoid severe relapses? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS/SEID Recovery – It Takes Some Dedicated Time

7/11/2017

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Every once in a while, I drag out my soap box…. Here I go….

I frequently receive emails from people who have been struggling with ME/CFS/SEID for way too long. This is such a cruel disease. And I know that everyone’s situation is different with demands and responsibilities. But recovery from ME/CFS/SEID, at least for me, came at a price. A very high price. I literally gave up two years of my life in order to recover. And, as you already know, I hated every minute of it up until I started to taste how it used to feel to be well. And when I got that taste, I had hope that I could recover. Full disclose: I had to repeat that ‘first taste’ experience three times before I fully understood what I needed to do next which was nothing.

I needed to stick with the protocol and rest. I needed to stay right where I was and continue to do all the self-care that had gotten me that far. And that’s when I truly began to hate the protocol. As I felt better and better, I continued with the restrictive protocol. Ad nauseam.

So here are my questions to you. How long have you been struggling with ME/CFS/SEID? What quality of life are you living? How much time would two years be compared with all the years you’ve already been struggling? What would you lose? Could you dedicate One year to only being a Patient? I know. It’s a very high price. This is a cruel disease. Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays. And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Stop – When we had other plans

ME/CFS Recovery – Take Control

ME/CFS Plan – Only Keep Your Successful Strategies

ME/CFS Pacing – Keeping the Beat

ME/CFS Common Ground – Not What Divides Us

ME/CFS Loss – Can be Temporary

ME/CFS Goals – Attitude, Attitude, Attitude

ME/CFS Change – New Beginnings

ME/CFS/SEID Colored Glasses

ME/CFS/SEID Recovery – It Takes Some Dedicated Time

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