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ME/CFS Recovery - Every Day Counts

5/10/2022

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I have a long-term goal.  And I make progress in some ways but fall short in others.  It’s been a struggle.  I made a recent decision to rethink my time management around this goal and remembered a favorite quote from Annie Dillard, “How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.”  And I started to see the parallels between my recent approaches to this new goal and how I had initially reacted to my struggle with ME/CFS.  My approach had been inconsistent and I misunderstood the need to apply myself every day to my desire to get well.

So much of what I did in those early days of ME/CFS came out of frustration and anger.  But even when I moved past that, I still wasn’t focused on the importance of how I spent each and every day.  It took a while before I began to see each day as a building block, which was added to the day before.  And so on until I had built up a week of days, then a month of days and eventually many months and finally a year of days.  That added up to 365 days in a row of consciously working toward recovering my health.  When I finally understood the value and rewards of daily focus, I began to see real progress.


So our lives do reflect how we spend our days.  And one day at a time, each and every day, you can make progress toward regaining your health.  That’s the only way I was successful.  How do you focus on your recovery every day?  Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Answers – Look Within

6/8/2021

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Several decades ago everyone was wearing buttons.  It was the rage at the time and we Americans totally obliged.  I was slow to the party.  There really wasn’t something so important that I wanted to assert it everywhere I went.  Then I saw a button that called to me.  It simply said – Begin Within.  Yes, this was a perspective that I knew well and would want to impart to all.  Skip forward to last week when I was rummaging thru a drawer and found it.  I was thinking about how this simple wisdom was the key to my struggle with ME/CFS.
 
It wasn’t until I stopped looking for answers from others and looked within.  That’s where I finally found the answers.  Of course, they weren’t spelled out in big letters.  They were hidden in my version of ME/CFS.  I had to do the work to find them but they were there.  Once I got on track with my daily record, the answers started to slowly surface.  Not in days or weeks, but months and years.  It took patience and pacing but it all started when I understood that I needed to – Begin Within.

 
Have you discovered some important clues to your recovery by beginning within?  What strategies have worked for you?  Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!
 
Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Healing – The Challenging Last Phase

5/18/2021

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Just recently I received an email from an ME/CFS patient who has been recovering and has reached a better level of functioning but has stopped progressing.  This is a story that we are all too familiar with.  Many of us have reached that level but can’t seem to get to the next and often last phase of full recovery.  I am not an exception.  I spent several rounds in ‘Almost There’ territory myself.  The first few being miserable failures where I could see and feel the possibility of full recovery and I dashed to what I thought was the sure finish line.  We are all too familiar with that story too.
 
Yes, I crashed and was worse than before each time.  Did I learn from this?  Not at first.  After two of these devastatingly disappointing setbacks, I got the message.  I needed to be as careful and as intentionally paced in the last stretch as I was in the first few when my body’s messages were clearer and easier to read.  It took great restraint to succeed in making a full recovery.  But I made it.
 
There is a prevalent message in the ME/CFS culture that patients have to learn to live with ME/CFS.  According to the accepted mantra, no one fully recovers.  This is SO not true.  Yes, there are many different dis-eases mixed up in our cruel ME/CFS wastebasket diagnosis.  But many patients do fully recover - they just don’t talk about it.  But that’s a topic for another blog.  My point is that the last phase of recovery is so personally challenging.  If it was easy, we’d all be fully well.  It takes even more focused attention and ‘case-study-of-one’ perspective because the clues, symptoms and patterns are much more subtle.

 
Where are you in your recovery?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Recovery Goal – Our Aim is Off

8/25/2020

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If you ask most people who are struggling with ME/CFS what they want, the answer is usually, “I want my life back!”  What most aim for is normalcy.  The ability to be the person they were before ME/CFS.  They want their family life, social life, work life and healthy life back.  They want to live again.  They don’t want restrictions and pacing.  They want the whole ME/CFS nightmare to go away.  And I was no different.  I searched and searched for the magic cure that would get me from nightmare to full health again.

During that search, I crashed and relapsed so many times that I really can’t number them.  It was brutal physically, mentally and emotionally.  Honestly, as my daughter would say, I was a hot mess.  The truth that I finally discovered is that no one can go from the cruelty of ME/CFS to full recovery in one magic step.  Not even two or three or ten.  And since I’ve been fully well again and I’ve met others who have fully recovered, not one of them ever found an instant cure.  If there was a key piece to their recovery, it was discovered as they recovered – as other symptoms began to receded, it became prominent.

So what’s your recovery goal?  Are you ready to get off the crash and relapse roller coaster?  For whatever reasons, some of us need to ride it longer than others.  When you’ve had enough, reassess your goal and correct your aim.  I finally realized that I needed to get to a pace where I could handle things and not get sicker.  A pace plateau.  Something I could sustain for weeks and not crash.  Then I would try a little bit more.  If I could handle it, I stuck with it for a long time to ensure that I didn’t get sick.  And so on.  If I couldn’t handle it, I quickly dropped back a step and settled in for a while.  Did I like this snail’s pace?  Of course not!  I hated it!  But I finally got my life back.  So where is your aim these days?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.
Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Halt – When we had other plans

3/3/2020

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Recently we were driving along with a schedule for the day.  Then bang.  We had a tire blow out.  We were able to safely get to the side of road but that one event shot holes in the plan for the day.  As we began to assess the condition of our spare tire and whether all the parts of the jack were in the truck, I was reminded of how ME/CFS suddenly forced me to change my plans.

There I was, tooling along with my life plan and then suddenly – bang – I was so ill that I was bedridden.  And after going through the seemingly endless screening process, I was diagnosed with ME/CFS.  Not great news.

Back on the side of the road, we thought we had everything to change the tire and started in.  Then we realized that the jack crank was missing.  Great – that meant that we had to raise up the car one half turn at a time.  As I knelt by the car, inserting the lug wrench, turning a half turn, removing the lug wrench, moving it back to the other side, then reinserting and turning a half turn – over and over and over – I kept thinking about how ME/CFS required me to invent tools to get well because the normal methods didn’t work.  And getting well was agonizingly slow.  And repetitive.  And repetitive.  And really repetitive.

So having that flat tire abruptly changed my plans and it took more time than it should have because we didn’t have the right tools.  And getting ME/CFS abruptly changed my life plans and it took more time to get well from ME/CFS because we needed to invent the right tools.   What tools are you inventing?  What tools are you learning from others?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for postings on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.
Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS New Year - Take a fresh look

1/7/2020

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It’s a hackneyed part of our culture that everyone makes New Year resolutions which we earnestly pursue for one month.  Then we return to our old habitual patterns.  And every year we resolve not to let that happen yet again.  So here we are.  For many, it’s a desire to improve one’s health.  If you’re struggling with ME/CFS, the stakes and the rewards are much higher than the average person who just wants to look or feel healthier.  For us, it’s about reclaiming our lives and our ability to be fully functioning and present – to be well again.
 
I encourage you to take a fresh look at your version of ME/CFS.  Hopefully you are keeping a daily log of your activities, sleeping/resting times, symptoms and medications.  Step back and take an objective look at your patterns.  Look for periods of wellness.  What preceded those periods?  Replicate those patterns.  Look for periods of ill health or crashes.  What preceded those periods?  Don’t repeat those patterns.  Look at your symptoms.  Which are the most debilitating?  When do they flair up?  How can you treat them in order to short circuit the flair up?  Look at your sleeping patterns.  How can you improve the quality of your sleep?  How can you make your bedroom into your version of slumber heaven – light, sound, comfort and sleep aids.  Your daily log needs to be mined for clues as you find your path back to wellness. 

 
If you’ve made progress this year and you’ve managed to shed some of the symptoms that were masking your version of ME/CFS, awesome!  As you take a fresh look, you may get a clearer view of the key or central issues which characterize your version of ME/CFS and some insight into new approaches, strategies and clues to your next steps.  It was through this methodical periodic review that I eventually unraveled my version of ME/CFS and was able to be fully well again.  What will you focus on in this New Year?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha


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Recovery Opinions – Some More Hopeful Than Others

11/12/2019

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ME/CFS patients seem to be firmly in either the ‘can’ or ‘can’t’ recover camps.  As one might guess, most of the opinions can to be related to whether or not each has been able to recover.  And then there are the rest: fence sitters who are hopeful and want recovery to be possible. 
 
For me, I keep coming back to what I feel is so unfair about this ME/CFS diagnosis.  The fact the even though thousands of patients get this label, they actually don’t all have the same disease.  So using the same treatment and approach, two patients can have completely different outcomes.  Or one has great success and the other minimal improvement.  Yes, I believe that ME/CFS patients can recover.  Can they all recover using the same treatment?  No.  Can they recover using the same protocol and strategies?  Call me crazy but my answer is yes.
 
My training as a health professional drilled into me two things:  first, despite all the marvelous progress that medicine had made over the last century, we still only know and understand a small portion of the intricacies of the human body.  Second, the way that we learn things is to collect data, hypothesize, test, evaluate and then collect more data, etc.

 
Personal data collection (yes, I keep harping on this) and successful strategies seem to be the way out for many.  Have you developed any strategies that work for you?  Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Progress - Look How Far You've Come

10/29/2019

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There’s an endless fence that runs along the edge of our yard.  The mower can’t get the weeds that grow close to it so not being fond of weed whacking, we’ve been watching them grow and grow.  After discussing how unsightly they had become, we decided to dig up the weeds along the fence and mulch.  You probably know where this is going.
 
After three hours of digging, pulling, hauling and mulching, we had completed four sections.  We were sweaty, caked with dirt and tired.  My son observed that the fence was so long that it didn’t feel like we made any progress for all the work we’d done.  Of course, it reminded me of my struggle with ME/CFS and the days that I felt the same way about how slow my recovery seemed to be.  Some weeks, I didn’t think I was any closer to being well again despite all my efforts at following the protocol and ‘doing the right things’.
 
Standing at the fence, it was my turn to say, “Don’t look at how far we have to go, look at how far we’ve come.”  That’s what my advocate said to me when I was struggling with ME/CFS and couldn’t see the improvements in my health.  It was helpful to hear, “six months ago, you had to sit during a shower and someone had to wash your hair because you couldn’t hold your arms up over your head for that long.”  It was true.  Six months later, I could take a shower standing up.  OK, I had to rest before and after but it was progress.

 
So this morning before the heat cranked up, we finished eight more sections in our third round of digging and mulching.  We still have a long way to go – not quite half way yet but what we’ve finished looks great.  And when you think about the long path to recovery from ME/CFS, remember to look at how far you’ve come.  Are you seeing progress?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Choices – What would you Decide?

6/25/2019

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Lately I’ve been making decisions about what I want to be doing – real, active, conscious decisions.  I’m getting to the point in my life where odds are, there is less of it ahead of me than behind me.  The term ‘bucket list’ has become popular.  But I’m not thinking about specific events or activities that I want to check off a list.  I’m thinking about the way I want to live my daily life.  And, of course, this has gotten me thinking about my struggle with ME/CFS and what I’m doing with my hard won, regained wellness.

Once I knew that ME/CFS was in my past, I did not choose to go back to the fast paced, stressful life that I led prior to being ill.  I decided to live a life focused on my family and to make better wellness decisions.  In retrospect, I’d say that I was reasonably successful in that choice.


If restoring your wellness is your current goal, imagine the kind of life you would choose to live, having been through all this, if you were well again.  Would you go back to the old pace?  The old ways of marginal self-care?  What kind of focus would you have in life as a well person?  When you think about your prior lifestyle choices, which would you resume?  What would you dump?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!
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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Attitude – The Law of Attraction

6/18/2019

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I was feeling down recently - kind of an internal implosion resulting from too many people and things weighing on me culminating with feeling sorry for myself.  For a period of time I allowed myself to be in that place.  And that was OK because sometimes we need to feel emotions in order to decide what to do about them.  And it gave me a small taste of my lowest points when I was struggling with ME/CFS.
 
I am however, at my innermost core, an optimist and that part of me eventually asserted itself and demanded that I move on.  I was reminded of the Law of Attraction and the theory that by focusing on either positive or negative thoughts, we attract the same energy or results.  The most documented example of this is the placebo effect which produces positive health results in blind medical trials where the patient is only given a simple sugar pill.  Patients are able to think themselves better. I was not aware that there is an equally well documented nocebo effect which produces negative health results in clinical trials where a placebo is used.  People who fear medication or who have a negative medical image can actually cause deterioration in their own health.  Powerful stuff.

 
For me that’s a strong statement about how much control we actually DO have in dealing with ME/CFS.  Once I turned the corner away from blame, denial and anger, and moved forward into solving my ME/CFS puzzle as a case study of one, I began to slowly get better.  And yes, I was actively managing my health every day and it was no accident that the daily scrutiny finally resulted in my return to health.  But my positive attitude directed at my determination to figure out my version of this cruel disease, was a big factor in succeeding despite the long haul.  How do you manage your daily attitude in order to attract positive healing?  What strategies work for you?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha


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