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ME/CFS Feng Shui – How Does Your Energy Flow?

2/23/2021

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I was recently rearranging the furniture in my family room in order to accommodate a new door.  I also just wanted a new look without buying new furniture.  As I began to move things around, I was surprised at how different the same things could look and function just by rearranging them. The energy in the room changed too.  It felt airier and brighter – it flowed better.   Of course this got me thinking about ME/CFS and how poorly my energy flowed.

For most of the first half of my struggle with ME/CFS, I didn’t regulate my energy at all.  I burnt up whatever I had then crashed.  There was no pacing.  There was no intension to plan my day around what I could reasonably handle.  And most important, there was no progress toward getting better.  The opposite was true.  I was getting worse.

Once I decided to take more control of my ME/CFS, my energy flow changed dramatically.  Instead of the abrupt go, go then stop, stop, stop, I began to use my energy reserves at a slow but steady pace.  Much like the familiar Tortoise and Hare story, I was slowly getting back to wellness one day at a time.  And over a long period of time I got there.  Sadly, I’m guessing that I left a few Hares behind still trapped in the cruelty of ME/CFS.


I’m sitting in my newly rearranged family room as I write.  What a difference.  The energy is flowing easily - not rushed or stopped up.  How are you managing your energy flow?  Have you embraced your tortoise?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Recovery Goal – Our Aim is Off

8/25/2020

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If you ask most people who are struggling with ME/CFS what they want, the answer is usually, “I want my life back!”  What most aim for is normalcy.  The ability to be the person they were before ME/CFS.  They want their family life, social life, work life and healthy life back.  They want to live again.  They don’t want restrictions and pacing.  They want the whole ME/CFS nightmare to go away.  And I was no different.  I searched and searched for the magic cure that would get me from nightmare to full health again.

During that search, I crashed and relapsed so many times that I really can’t number them.  It was brutal physically, mentally and emotionally.  Honestly, as my daughter would say, I was a hot mess.  The truth that I finally discovered is that no one can go from the cruelty of ME/CFS to full recovery in one magic step.  Not even two or three or ten.  And since I’ve been fully well again and I’ve met others who have fully recovered, not one of them ever found an instant cure.  If there was a key piece to their recovery, it was discovered as they recovered – as other symptoms began to receded, it became prominent.

So what’s your recovery goal?  Are you ready to get off the crash and relapse roller coaster?  For whatever reasons, some of us need to ride it longer than others.  When you’ve had enough, reassess your goal and correct your aim.  I finally realized that I needed to get to a pace where I could handle things and not get sicker.  A pace plateau.  Something I could sustain for weeks and not crash.  Then I would try a little bit more.  If I could handle it, I stuck with it for a long time to ensure that I didn’t get sick.  And so on.  If I couldn’t handle it, I quickly dropped back a step and settled in for a while.  Did I like this snail’s pace?  Of course not!  I hated it!  But I finally got my life back.  So where is your aim these days?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Lost Opportunities? – Just Postponed

8/11/2020

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A few summers ago, I spent a weekend with my niece and her young family at the lake.  My grandniece was three and was so much like my daughter was at that age – the bright smile and giggly laugh.  The difference is that I could play with her, dance with her and even pick her up.  When my daughter was a baby, I was in the depths of ME/CFS and couldn’t hold a glass of water let alone a fifteen pound baby.  I missed my daughters’ time as a baby and toddler.  Even when she was three, I was still unable to pick her up or do active play with her.
 
Did I miss out on an experience that I can never get back?  One could look at it that way.  And of course, I can’t get it back with my daughter.  But spending time with my grandniece was such a wonderful gift.  It was like recovering that lost experience.  And my daughter was there too.  She had just turned twenty-two.  It was a joy to see her holding her cousin on her hip and playing with her.
 
If I had tried to ‘do it all’ with my daughter, I know that I would still be struggling with ME/CFS.  It had such a profound hold on me that it took dedicated focus, to the exclusion of all else, to get well - even the joys of my daughters’ babyhood.  I did find ways to enjoy her and be her Mom but they needed to be energetically limited.  And I would do it the same again because now, and for the last eighteen years, I’ve been a full participant in my life, her life and the lives of all my loved ones.  So now I plan to see my grandniece as much as possible and revel in this new opportunity to recover something that was just postponed.

 
Are you balancing choices that might be missed opportunities?  Are you planning ways to recover them later?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!
 
Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Progress - Look How Far You've Come

10/29/2019

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There’s an endless fence that runs along the edge of our yard.  The mower can’t get the weeds that grow close to it so not being fond of weed whacking, we’ve been watching them grow and grow.  After discussing how unsightly they had become, we decided to dig up the weeds along the fence and mulch.  You probably know where this is going.
 
After three hours of digging, pulling, hauling and mulching, we had completed four sections.  We were sweaty, caked with dirt and tired.  My son observed that the fence was so long that it didn’t feel like we made any progress for all the work we’d done.  Of course, it reminded me of my struggle with ME/CFS and the days that I felt the same way about how slow my recovery seemed to be.  Some weeks, I didn’t think I was any closer to being well again despite all my efforts at following the protocol and ‘doing the right things’.
 
Standing at the fence, it was my turn to say, “Don’t look at how far we have to go, look at how far we’ve come.”  That’s what my advocate said to me when I was struggling with ME/CFS and couldn’t see the improvements in my health.  It was helpful to hear, “six months ago, you had to sit during a shower and someone had to wash your hair because you couldn’t hold your arms up over your head for that long.”  It was true.  Six months later, I could take a shower standing up.  OK, I had to rest before and after but it was progress.

 
So this morning before the heat cranked up, we finished eight more sections in our third round of digging and mulching.  We still have a long way to go – not quite half way yet but what we’ve finished looks great.  And when you think about the long path to recovery from ME/CFS, remember to look at how far you’ve come.  Are you seeing progress?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS Goals – Celebrate Each One

5/21/2019

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The last couple weeks have been non-stop activity.  We have been celebrating a friend’s graduation from college with senior shows, events, special dinners and of course the official commencement ceremony.  She has been focused on getting here for the last four years and has been successful due in major part to her focus and undistracted commitment.  And of course I’ve been thinking about my struggle with ME/CFS.  How grateful I am to be well again and able to fully participate in the celebrations but also because she has succeeded the same way that I succeeded in recovering from ME/CFS.

After struggling for several years, trying everything we heard about and searching for the doctor who could give us the answers to my illness and the magic pill so I could get my life back, we finally realized that there wasn’t an easy answer.  So we decided to try a new approach.  The long term goal was to be fully well again.  But we knew that there were many small goals between the present and my healthy future.  We had to string many smaller goals together in order to reach the ultimate wellness goal.
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And so it has been with my friend.  Over the course of four years, she has set her goals one semester at a time.  And for me it was this same step by step approach that finally worked.  I broke the whole goal down into reasonable chunks.  And as I achieved each goal, we celebrated.  I’m not talking parties.  Just simple recognition of what it took to get there and acknowledging the progress.  This gave me the validation to keep going.


So what’s your next short term goal on the road to wellness?  What have you celebrated lately?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.
Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Lost Opportunities? – Just Postponed

8/28/2018

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A few summers ago, I spent a weekend with my niece and her young family at the lake.  My grandniece was three and was so much like my daughter was at that age – the bright smile and giggly laugh.  The difference is that I could play with her, dance with her and even pick her up.  When my daughter was a baby, I was in the depths of ME/CFS and couldn’t hold a glass of water let alone a fifteen pound baby.  I missed my daughters’ time as a baby and toddler.  Even when she was three, I was still unable to pick her up or do active play with her.
 
Did I miss out on an experience that I can never get back?  One could look at it that way.  And of course, I can’t get it back with my daughter.  But spending time with my grandniece was such a wonderful gift.  It was like recovering that lost experience.  And my daughter was there too.  She had just turned twenty-two.  It was a joy to see her holding her cousin on her hip and playing with her.
 
If I had tried to ‘do it all’ with my daughter, I know that I would still be struggling with ME/CFS.  It had such a profound hold on me that it took dedicated focus, to the exclusion of all else, to get well - even the joys of my daughters’ babyhood.  I did find ways to enjoy her and be her Mom but they needed to be energetically limited.  And I would do it the same again because now, and for the last eighteen years, I’ve been a full participant in my life, her life and the lives of all my loved ones.  So now I plan to see my grandniece as much as possible and revel in this new opportunity to recover something that was just postponed.

 
Are you balancing choices that might be missed opportunities?  Are you planning ways to recover them later?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!
 
Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Repetition – Keep Your Sanity

7/10/2018

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This summer in New England has seen a lot of hot weather.  It hasn’t been two or three days in a row.  It’s been a long conga line of hot dry days.  Day after day and week after week.  And it’s only the third week in July.  I can’t remember the last time we had a good rain.  I’m not an AC lover but it’s been on almost constantly.  And inevitably when I get into drawn out repetitive situations, I think about my struggle with ME/CFS.

When I finally quit riding the roller coaster after two brutal years and settled into the protocol, it was a long, repetitive, frustrating path.  Whenever I looked forward, the repetition seemed to spread out endlessly before me.  Like this long hot summer, it didn’t seem like it would ever end.  I had to find the courage to settle in.  I needed to take it a day at a time.  I needed to stick with the recovery plan and work it every day.  Honestly, I couldn’t think about how slow the pace was because it drove me crazy.  Much like this summer, I don’t think about how many more hot days are coming.  I take it day by day.  Right now, there’s another gorgeous sunny day outside my windows.  The kind I hoped for in the dead of winter.
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My best days of dealing with the slow repetitious pace were when I looked over my health log and saw the real progress.  I was slowly making my way back to full health.  And the proof was right there written in black and white.  It was a balm for my sanity.  Are you on the slow, repetitious path that the protocol requires?  What helps you stay sane?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Rest – Ease and Release

1/30/2018

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I’ve been thinking about what rest is.  Some would say it’s the opposite of physical action – inaction.  Some would say it’s a state – at rest.  I think of it as a combination of stilling the body, the mind and the spirit.  Without all three, for me, it isn’t true rest.
 
When I was struggling with ME/CFS, I spent many long periods of time in bed – supposedly at rest.  But for many of those hours I was either completely awake or in a semi asleep state.  Although my body was horizontal and only moved occasionally, my mind was grinding - either hung up on one particular worrying thought or bouncing all over the subject map.  My mind was definitely not resting.
 
Then sometimes I could accomplish a period of time when my mind was quiet and my body was still but my spirit was low.  My attitude and my outlook were down.  So I was still draining my energy allowing it to ooze out of me as I sat in a negative place about my situation.

 
Ultimately, for me, true rest came when my body was still, my mind was at ease and I released the emotionally heavy weight of my situation so I could lift up into a place of real rest.  In those moments when I was able to accomplish true rest, I could replenish my energy and take steps toward regaining my health.  How do you rest?  What are your strategies?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays.  And consider being part of the conversation.

Be Well Again,
Martha


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ME/CFS/SEID Strategies – Give Them Time

4/18/2017

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I’ve been working on some changes in my life, as we all do from time to time, and I’m running into an obstacle – Impatience.  For some reason, I’m finding it hard to give myself the time and space to follow through on my approach long enough to see real change.  And of course, as I realize that I’m the one standing in my own way, I remember how hard it was to be patient when I was struggling with ME/CFS/SEID.
 
In the beginning, the frustration and anger I felt about being sick siphoned off a lot of my precious energy.  But the hardest hit I took was from impatience.  After I began to be proactive about ME/CFS/SEID – not waiting for someone else to find the answer to my illness – I had difficulty giving my strategies the time they needed to feel the effects.  I wanted to see improvement quickly.  At the start, I wanted to see results over the next few days.  And if I didn’t see any improvement, I’d abandon that strategy and try something else.  As you might imagine, I dismissed several good strategies quickly without giving them the time they needed.
 

Luckily, I finally understood that in my haste, I was running out of ideas.  So as I recycled some, I took more time and began to see real progress.  Are you giving your strategies the time they need to succeed?  Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission.  You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net.  And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha


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