Category: Attitude

ME/CFS Recovery Goal – Our Aim is Off

7/17/2018

If you ask most people who are struggling with ME/CFS what they want, the answer is usually, “I want my life back!” What most aim for is normalcy. The ability to be the person they were before ME/CFS. They want their family life, social life, work life and healthy life back. They want to live again. They don’t want restrictions and pacing. They want the whole ME/CFS nightmare to go away. And I was no different. I searched and searched for the magic cure that would get me from nightmare to full health again.

During that search, I crashed and relapsed so many times that I really can’t number them. It was brutal physically, mentally and emotionally. Honestly, as my daughter would say, I was a hot mess. The truth that I finally discovered is that no one can go from the cruelty of ME/CFS to full recovery in one magic step. Not even two or three or ten. And since I’ve been fully well again and I’ve met others who have fully recovered, not one of them ever found an instant cure. If there was a key piece to their recovery, it was discovered as they recovered – as other symptoms began to receded, it became prominent.

So what’s your recovery goal? Are you ready to get off the crash and relapse roller coaster? For whatever reasons, some of us need to ride it longer than others. When you’ve had enough, reassess your goal and correct your aim. I finally realized that I needed to get to a pace where I could handle things and not get sicker. A pace plateau. Something I could sustain for weeks and not crash. Then I would try a little bit more. I if could handle it, I stuck with it for a long time to ensure that I didn’t get sick. And so on. If I couldn’t handle it, I quickly dropped back a step and settled in for a while. Did I like this snail’s pace? Of course not! I hated it! But I finally got my life back. So where is your aim these days? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Martha

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ME/CFS Pacing – We Totally Get It

6/5/2018

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No matter where you live, you may be aware that New England has been dealing with a conga line of cold, rainy weekends since April. It has been a record breaking couple of months. Even the most ‘rain loving’ people around me have had it. And of course, all of this got me thinking about my struggle with ME/CFS.

Like many, the depths of my illness dragged on for about four years. And like many more, it still drags on. We know what it takes to be in something for the long haul. To commit to getting better as a lifestyle however limited. And yes, some of us needed multiple remedial roller coaster rides of push crash cycles – I’m at the front of that line. But we totally get the patience and pacing it takes to reach a goal – for us wellness. And we keep at it, day after day, week after week, month after month and year after year. We are determined to be well again.

This understanding doesn’t entitle me to look down my nose at those around me who are done with the cold and the rain. But honestly, I do a little – just a smidge. Yes, I’m tired of it too but I am not complaining. This is a piece of cake – made of rain - compared to struggling with ME/CFS.

Whenever someone groans about the weather, I listen for a while then smile and say, “Keep Calm and Umbrellas Up”. Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Guest Blog – Dale Miller’s list of Health Ideas

5/1/2018

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Dale Miller recently sent me his list and I wanted to share it. It’s long so I’ve selected twenty to start. Pace yourself LOL.
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I have been reading your blog for at least a couple of years. You always have a good thought in there that is valuable in helping me run my life. I’ve been dealing with these issues for over 15 years. At different times, I have been in the pit of despair at ever being able to do anything, and at other times, ringing with ecstatic joy at being reborn into a full rich exciting life. It has taken me a long time, but most days, I have learned to savor each day or hour that I am able to function and show up for my life.

Overtime, for me, I have learned that maintaining optimum health is a long haul operation. My view is that watching out for and caring for my body just came at an earlier time in my life than it does for most people. Everyone, if they want to operate at their peak has to be careful to eat the right foods, watch over their mental processes. get the right health care, proper rest, good companions, love and care. We all need/want these things, not just people with a chronic health condition.

Take care, Dale

HEALTH IDEAS
April 19, 2018

Positive/negative affirmations. Whenever you say, “I’m tired. I’m old.” These are negative affirmations. You may not believe in affirmations, nevertheless you may be doing negative affirmations every day!
Develop a tiny interest, something to think about every day.
Keep the mind off sickness, push the mind over to the interest.
Audible books for distraction. Try happy tv or radio.
Music always playing in the house.
Dance it out.
Sing, doesn’t matter if you have a lousy voice, raises the endorphins.
Find someone or animal to touch.
Small exercise daily, even if only visualizing.
Starfish 10x a day. A starfish is when you raise your arms as high as possible over your head, inhale deeply, then bring your arms down and exhale.
Understand completely the connection between illness and depression. If you are long-term ill, you are probably depressed. Suggest Jonathan Harr’s book, Missed Connections for what to do about it.
Constantly be looking for something to feel good about. Roses, flowers, puppies, kittens, dogs.
Find all the parts of your body which are working. Chances are, 97%+ is working, notice that and catalogue if you need to. Focus on what part of the body is working and functioning, not on what is not.
Slow down, taste everything, smell everything, hear everything.
Correct your posture constantly. A slump posture makes you feel bad and breathe shallowly.
Negativity bias. This is a bias that all humans have which is a survival skill. It’s very valuable if there is a saber tiger in your immediate vicinity. Otherwise, you are trained to always seek the negative. This is not helpful if you are trying to recover from a chronic illness.
Control your input, you may have to lose negative friends and family.
Forgive everyone who has ever wronged you in this life-including yourself.
Read inspiring material every day.
Find someone or something to love unconditionally, hopefully yourself.

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Martha

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ME/CFS Gifts – Better Days

4/24/2018

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I live in New England where this winter has been weird – warm when it’s supposed to be cold then cold when we expect it to be warm. I’ve had mixed feelings about it. I love the coziness of a cold winter - but not the hassle of storms and hazardous travel. I think most of us are done and ready for spring.

This week we’ve finally had some sunny warm days that reached above 60. I went for a walk and felt all the usual stirrings of spring. Of course, I knew that it wasn’t here to stay but the taste of it was enticing. I remembered back to my ME/CFS years when after a period of intentional good behavior, doing everything I knew about how to get well, I had a really good day. It was so enticing then to start my old life back – to forego all that I had learned in the hope that this was it. It was a gift of one day that could reinforce all my intentions to stay the course or lure me into a false sense of full wellness.

Several times I was suckered in by the gift. But after a few bad turns I got it. By comparison it put so much in perspective. So this is what it feels like to be better and feeling strong! So just as I know that the 60 degree day is only a reminder of the spring to come, back then I had to avoid the pitfall of a wonderful gift of a better ME/CFS day. Revel in its potential to be repeated more often and stay the course of pacing.

How have you reacted to these gifted days? Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Attitude – What Others Say

4/17/2018

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When you’re struggling with ME/CFS, it can be a daily challenge to keep your own negative attitudes in check. It’s all too easy to fall into the trap of wasting precious energy grinding about the things you can’t do, the thoughts you can’t keep straight and the important people in your life for whom you can’t be present.

It becomes even more challenging when you have to deal with the negative attitudes and insensitive comments of others. One group says ‘you look OK to me’. Then there are the ‘doubters’ who look at you as if you’re either physically lazy or mentally weak. And then you face the curious crowd who seem interested in your illness only to the extent that they want to tell you about themselves or their sick friend. It’s hard to know what to say without being irritated (only to confirm their assessment of your mental weakness) or rude which can alienate people whom you otherwise value in your life.

Fortunately for most, there are a few steadfast supporters, family members or friends, who get it and want to support your path back to health in whatever way they can. And even these caring people can say the most insensitive things at times. When I heard these comments, I donned my writer’s thick skin which I acquired as the result of many tough critiques.

What do you say when people make insensitive comments? Do you react at all? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Optimism – Brighter Days

4/3/2018

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It happens to me every year around the end of March. Although I don’t see the signs of change in myself yet, one of my window plants catches my notice. There’s a new vibrancy in its color or maybe even a tiny sprout where a dead leaf had dropped. Something triggers my attentiveness and before I’ve cognitively made the connection, I’m trimming, repotting and fertilizing all my plants.

What my plants have all been responding to, and what I’m also caught up in, are the longer days with brighter light streaming in my windows. And I think back to my ME/CFS days and remember how hard it was day after day, week after week and month after month to keep my spirits up. To remember my resolve to keep to the protocol, to allow myself the space to heal, and most importantly to cut myself the mental slack I needed. The only time I didn’t need to be intentional about being upbeat was when the light began to get noticeably brighter at this time of year. There’s a reaction to the increasing daylight that we experience on a cellular level. I’m sure there are reams of scientific studies that have investigated this response but I don’t need to read them. My sense of renewal and optimism are palpable. And during my ME/CFS struggle, it was natural to see this NOT as the marking of another year of this cruel illness, but as the beginning of the year when my progress would get me to the next health plateau – the next stage of recovery.

I’m hoping that you are able to harness this brighter light and natural source of anticipation to carry you successfully along your path back to wellness. Please COMMENT or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Invisibility – You Are Not Crazy

3/20/2018

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I was standing at a deli counter waiting to order and there were no numbers to take. So I tried to politely keep track of whose turn it was to be served. Predictably, a few of the people just didn’t want to see me. And of course, it reminded me of how invisible I was when I was struggling with ME/CFS.

Most of us have suffered not only with the frustration and illness of ME/CFS but with the non recognition of this disease by the medical community and the people around us. According to them, we don't look that sick and we don't test sick so we aren't physically sick... And when we’re treated that way, we tend to withdraw. Combine that with the physical and mental disability of ME/CFS and it’s a combination that leaves us isolated and ultimately invisible.

And in that isolation, we begin to question our own mental capacity. Do not listen to those negative, degrading messages! You are not alone in this and you are not crazy! Many people are in this ME/CFS boat struggling to be seen and to be well again.

For me, I was able to find a few people who would listen and help. It made me feel visible again. How do you deal with the invisibility of ME/CFS? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Sadness – Snowy Days Made Me Happy

3/13/2018

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It’s a cold snowy day in New England. It's the third storm in a conga line. So today, as I settled in for a less active indoor day, I started thinking about my struggle with ME/CFS and those snowy days. One might think that like some people, snowy days would have seemed dreary and sad back then. But the opposite was true. Snowy days made me very happy.

Why? When I was struggling with ME/CFS, sunny warm days made me miserable. I wanted so much to be out and going about my life. And lovely days were a tough reminder that I was too ill to participate in my own life – in anyone’s life. Those days seemed twice as long as normal. They dragged and dragged and dragged on some more. Those days were depressing.

I must admit, somewhat ashamed, that cold snowy days made me feel like other people might have their days limited as mine were. Not with the physical symptoms of ME/CFS but the limitations on mobility. The restriction of activity and possibly some of the isolation. I felt like other people were stuck in it with me. A sort of warped sense of misery loves company. And this made me happy. OK, not one of my best moments.

As I began to understand that I needed to get off the ME/CFS roller coaster and focus on a real recovery plan, this weather influenced attitude began to change. My daily approach to healing became a matter of choice as I was no longer a victim of ME/CFS but rather someone who was on an intentional recovery path. Nowadays when I’m trapped indoors on cold snowy days, I like to make the best of it and imagine I have lots of company. And a nap is nice too. How do you relate to cold snowy days? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Attitude – Highs and Lows

2/6/2018

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Like most people, post the holiday rush and glitz, I’m feeling the let down. Maybe it’s the juxtaposition of so much busyness followed by so much quiet. When I was struggling with ME/CFS, the contrast was starker. Other people went back to their normal, active lives and I went back to my forced slow recovery pace. It was a tough reality to accept.

Handling your ME/CFS attitude is key to finding a path back to wellness. It’s hard to keep yourself up and motivated when you compare yourself to the others around you. And in addition to the physical illness which you are struggling to understand and heal, you have to deal with all the negative judgments and assumptions made about you by others. And don’t forget how harsh and judgmental we can be on ourselves which is completely counter productive.

The only attitude we have control over is our own. So cut yourself some serious slack and jettison the self recrimination. And decide to ignore everyone else’s judgments. It’s a waste of precious energy fretting about it. Focus on what you CAN do to heal and recover. And let all the rest of that negative fodder go.

How do you screen out the negative attitudes of others? Of your self? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Rest – Ease and Release

1/30/2018

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I’ve been thinking about what rest is. Some would say it’s the opposite of physical action – inaction. Some would say it’s a state – at rest. I think of it as a combination of stilling the body, the mind and the spirit. Without all three, for me, it isn’t true rest.

When I was struggling with ME/CFS, I spent many long periods of time in bed – supposedly at rest. But for many of those hours I was either completely awake or in a semi asleep state. Although my body was horizontal and only moved occasionally, my mind was grinding - either hung up on one particular worrying thought or bouncing all over the subject map. My mind was definitely not resting.

Then sometimes I could accomplish a period of time when my mind was quiet and my body was still but my spirit was low. My attitude and my outlook were down. So I was still draining my energy allowing it to ooze out of me as I sat in a negative place about my situation.

Ultimately, for me, true rest came when my body was still, my mind was at ease and I released the emotionally heavy weight of my situation so I could lift up into a place of real rest. In those moments when I was able to accomplish true rest, I could replenish my energy and take steps toward regaining my health. How do you rest? What are your strategies? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!

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Be Well Again,
Martha

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ME/CFS Recovery Goal – Our Aim is Off

ME/CFS Pacing – We Totally Get It

ME/CFS Guest Blog – Dale Miller’s list of Health Ideas

ME/CFS Gifts – Better Days

ME/CFS Attitude – What Others Say

ME/CFS Optimism – Brighter Days

ME/CFS Invisibility – You Are Not Crazy

ME/CFS Sadness – Snowy Days Made Me Happy

ME/CFS Attitude – Highs and Lows

ME/CFS Rest – Ease and Release

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