Early summer weather in New England can vary dramatically day to day. This year is no exception. The normal spring rains which enable the flowering of bulbs and perennials have been alternating with oppressive dry summer like heat waves. Cold heavy rain for days followed by sun baked days approaching 95 degrees. Last week the weather forecasters were a buzz about the storms moving up the eastern seaboard laden with needed water. As the front got closer, things shifted to warnings about flooding and washouts. And of course I began to think about the constant emotional peaks and valleys I experienced when I was struggling with ME/CFS.
As with all emotions that we actively fight to contain, they are held at bay by intentional shoring up with periods of overspills which always seem to be triggered unexpectedly. The cruelty of ME/CFS only serves to amplify the intensity of these highs and lows. My first year was full of frustration with the medical community that labeled me as a head case. With few exceptions I was looked upon as ‘mentally weak’ and in need of therapy. After a period of permitting that negativity to cling to me, I finally rejected it. But I was still left with a pattern of extremes where sometimes the skies would dump a deluge of emotions and I would struggle to tread water. After climbing out of that, I would experience a period of emotional drought when I could stay focused on the protocol and the slow but observable progress toward getting well again.
This focus helped me to eventually steer away from emotional lows and to avoid riding the drought and deluge roller coaster. How do you shore yourself up? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!
Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays. And consider being part of the conversation.
Be Well Again,
Martha
As with all emotions that we actively fight to contain, they are held at bay by intentional shoring up with periods of overspills which always seem to be triggered unexpectedly. The cruelty of ME/CFS only serves to amplify the intensity of these highs and lows. My first year was full of frustration with the medical community that labeled me as a head case. With few exceptions I was looked upon as ‘mentally weak’ and in need of therapy. After a period of permitting that negativity to cling to me, I finally rejected it. But I was still left with a pattern of extremes where sometimes the skies would dump a deluge of emotions and I would struggle to tread water. After climbing out of that, I would experience a period of emotional drought when I could stay focused on the protocol and the slow but observable progress toward getting well again.
This focus helped me to eventually steer away from emotional lows and to avoid riding the drought and deluge roller coaster. How do you shore yourself up? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!
Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays. And consider being part of the conversation.
Be Well Again,
Martha
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