Being ripped out my normal life and dropped into the wastebasket of ME/CFS/SEID was horrifying. I hated it. I railed against it. I expended a lot of energy being angry with my situation and the medical establishment. The cat on our porch did the exact same thing. She was clearly pissed off. When she wasn’t eating or sleeping, she hissed and growled at everyone except me. She even swatted if the wrong person got too close. She clearly wanted affection and purred loudly when I pet her but she was confused and mad. Who wouldn’t be?
She wanted her old life back just like I did. But the path for her to find a new home was not to go back the way she came. And so it was with me. I had to progress forward to find a new path in order to regain my health. I had to progress to being proactive – to taking responsibility for my recovery and to stop wasting energy on the blame game. The cat on our porch didn’t have the tool of reasoning. I couldn’t sit down with her and explain that she was just in transition and that we were looking for a permanent home for her – a new place that would be warm and loving and much like her old home. In the end, we did find her a new home and a new elderly woman who dotted on her. She’s still alive and well at 16.
Before I accepted my struggle with ME/CFS/SEID, I was in that same transitional place. If you’re still there, It’s time to progress forward into taking proactive control of your illness and your path back to wellness. Are you out of transition? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!
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Be Well Again,