© 2015 TSM When I first contracted SEID/CFS, I thought my illness would be short lived. It came on like the flu, it felt like the flu and I was sure that after a couple awful weeks, I would recover just like all the other flus I’d had. Lots of people around me were suffering with the same flu. Many people were laid up for a couple weeks just like me. But as I watched them recover and go back to work and their lives, I didn’t get better. And over time, as I attempted to get my life back to normal, I got worse.
It was easy at the time to question, “How come I’m not getting any better?” “Why did this happen to me and not anybody else?” As time went by, after many visits to different doctors, without getting any answers, I began to feel like the victim of a terrible hoax. I kept thinking that any day now, I’ll wake up and the nightmare would be over.
I developed a perspective that I had nothing to do with getting sick with SEID/CFS and I had no means within my control to get better. And I admit that I was feeling that way for a long time. I was trapped in the scenario that I was a victim and that I had no options other than suffering. My future seemed outside of my control.
Fortunately there was a quiet yet consistent voice inside of me that kept saying. “This isn’t you.” And it was right. I could no more give up complete control of my life than I could quit breathing. There had to be some part of this nightmare that I could work with – that I could control. Something that I could personally take on in order to get better.
And that was the beginning of an attitude shift that put me on the path to wellness. What parts of your struggle with SEID/CFS do you control? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!
Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays. And consider being part of the conversation.
Be Well Again,
Martha
It was easy at the time to question, “How come I’m not getting any better?” “Why did this happen to me and not anybody else?” As time went by, after many visits to different doctors, without getting any answers, I began to feel like the victim of a terrible hoax. I kept thinking that any day now, I’ll wake up and the nightmare would be over.
I developed a perspective that I had nothing to do with getting sick with SEID/CFS and I had no means within my control to get better. And I admit that I was feeling that way for a long time. I was trapped in the scenario that I was a victim and that I had no options other than suffering. My future seemed outside of my control.
Fortunately there was a quiet yet consistent voice inside of me that kept saying. “This isn’t you.” And it was right. I could no more give up complete control of my life than I could quit breathing. There had to be some part of this nightmare that I could work with – that I could control. Something that I could personally take on in order to get better.
And that was the beginning of an attitude shift that put me on the path to wellness. What parts of your struggle with SEID/CFS do you control? Please COMMENT on this blog or Send in your thoughts and I’ll post them with your permission. You can use the Contact Form or send an email to Martha at DefeatCFS dot net. And Guest Blogs are most welcome!
Look for a weekly posting on Tuesdays. And consider being part of the conversation.
Be Well Again,
Martha
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